Talked

[for real]

to my best friend today.

Love you, Jess. :)

life?

life is good. :)

I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL I DON'T HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY ON MONDAYS ANYMORE.

So I'm addicted to The Next Food Network Star.

IT'S AWESOME.

it's on at 10:00 at night.

I WANT TO EAT ALL OF THEIR FOOD.

ALL OF IT.

ALL OF THE FOODS!

I can't... do that...

1: It's 10:00PM at the EARLIEST. My body's like, "You will NOT feed me that late. You feed me that late, and I will make you fat and cramp down on your long-distance running ability. Marathon dreams? GOODBYE."

(I ran my first half marathon yesterday! YEAH!)

2: This show has already been filmed by the time I get to watch it. THERE IS NO FOOD LEFT. They never save me ANYTHING...

3: ...How can I eat food through the TV anyway? blast.

life?

happiness is not based on that one person that never seems to really understand you.

never shows interest in trying to really understand you.

is driven away by EVERYTHING you do,

whether it's ignoring him

or trying to be his friend.

that's just a trial.

My happiness comes from building my foundation on my Savior.

 therefore,

life is good. :)

I can do hard things.

That run was for Rachel. :)

Philippians 4:13

Dear Lorin.

You have inspired me.

Thank you. :)

life?

I told you. life is hard.

but I remind you:

life is always good. :)

I lost.

We're always told that we'll win some and we'll lose some,

but I didn't think that this would be one that I actually lost.

Because I didn't think that this (the loss) was even RIGHT.
I don't think it was supposed to happen.

which means that it is my fault,

my failure,

I couldn't do it. Not even with help.

That's it,

it's over.

If you can believe it,

life is still good. it's always good.

just harder sometimes than others.

Ohhhhhhhh.... lo'u loto. One day, I will figure you out.

"When someone is a true friend,

you'd be surprised at how understanding they can be."

-Sky High

life?

life is always good. :)

Jo.Go :)

Sooooooo..... didn't get to sit next to super attractive kid in Sunday School.

cause I had to teach.

the OTHER class.

oh well.

Then he didn't go to ward stare,

so I didn't actually talk to him at all on Sunday.

BUT.

He came to FHE last night...!!!

AND I TOTALLY TALKED TO HIM!!!

for a bit.

about movies.

small.

no engagement.

;)
[seriously: just jokes]

But I don't know if he's interested...

meh.

But even if he's not,

he and his roommate are pretty awesome.

and so if I just get to be friends with them,

that's cool. :)

better than nothing, right? :)

I totally like him...

crush...

squish...

whatever.

I wish he would ask me out.

That would take a miracle.

cross ya fingers for me. :)

sure do miss this kid. :)

life? life is good. :)

They keep telling me that Sunday will come... ;)

I'm not really crazy.

But I am still a girl.

OH MY GOSH.

I haven't liked anyone for months.

MONTHS.

I liked this one kid about a year ago.

A LOT.

a lot.

He was like my best friend.

But we never dated.

I thought he liked me, and sources say he did, but he never initiated anything, and I never pushed it, and he was long gone by September.

Yeah, it hurt,

A LOT.

a lot.

Because my best friend [UNINTENTIONALLY] basically dropped me.

such as, we don't even really talk anymore.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG story, and I'll spare you the details.

But I got over it.

Scarred, and even a bit hardened, 

[working on it]

but over it.

I don't blame him for anything. He didn't mean to hurt me.

But since then, I haven't really liked anyone else.

I found every guy just about as attractive as any other guy.

I had a couple (seriously, a couple) little squishes, but nothing that lasted very long at all.

And even then, it took a while of getting to know them to get to that point.

BUT THIS KID.

HOLY COW.

He is FREAKING attractive.

Yes, it's the one I wrote the nice note to.

And I've only ever said like 5 words to him!

AND I'M TOTALLY CRUSHING ON HIM.

...sorta. SCALE:

I want to say that I'm like at squish stage

BECAUSE I don't know him super well yet,

...but I'm basically crushing on him.

How does this HAPPEN??

Why do I like him?

I can't really give you a good reason...

He's good looking.

He has the best smile. :)

He seems like the athletic type, which I really like.

He just gave an awesome talk in church, which leads me to believe that he makes the gospel a high priority.

He seems like he's got his head on straight.

BUT I DON'T EVEN REALLY KNOW HIM.

Yeah, we've been in the same ward for a semester.

I'm a Sunday School teacher. He's in the Sunday School Presidency.

I know who he is. He knows who I am.

We're facebook friends, and he added me!

But I don't know him. I basically just know of him.

I can try to read him all I want,

but I don't want to read him,

I want to actually get to know him!

Plan: sit next to him at church on Sunday.

please be at church, pleeeeaaaassssseeeee be at church on Sunday.......

and please let there be an open seat next to him.....

It's going to be scary,

but I've done scary things before. :)

...I hope that we become friends,

and that maybe he'll even like me... :)

life? life is good. :)

Excitement [is a wee bit of an understatement in my life]

HOLYCOW.

LASTWEEKIWROTEANICENOTETOTHISKIDWHOIFINDSUPERATTRACTIVETHINKINGHEWASLEAVINGTHEWARDANDIHADNOTHINGTOLOSE.

 ANDITOLDHIMHEWASFREAKINGATTRACTIVE.

he's totally staying in the ward for Spring/Summer.

At least, as far as I can tell.

AND I THINK HE KNOWS IT WAS ME.

I didn't sign it,

 I had my roommate disguise my handwriting

(I'll spare you the details),

but I also wrote two of his roommates nice notes

and the handwriting was probably similar enough

that he compared it,

figured I was trying to disguise my handwriting,

which I was,

deduced it was me,

AND ADDED ME ON FACEBOOK!!

[...yep. excitement.]

THEN HE KINDA SAT BY [being like, vicinity-ness] ME TODAY, BUT IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

totally got shy and didn't say much to him........

oi.

What if he thinks I am weird?

standoffish?

 [ps: that IS how you spell that.]

CRAZY?? prolly.

didn't want to talk to him??

didn't write that note??

I can read people's personalities pretty well.

EXCEPT IF I THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE.

Then I just freak out.

silently.

on graffiti walls. :)

ohhhhhh life. :)

ON THE OTHER HAND I TOTALLY GOT THE BEST CALLING EVER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :)

frea. king. stoked. :) :) :)

life?

the Earth is beautiful,

and life is good. :)