I lost.

We're always told that we'll win some and we'll lose some,

but I didn't think that this would be one that I actually lost.

Because I didn't think that this (the loss) was even RIGHT.
I don't think it was supposed to happen.

which means that it is my fault,

my failure,

I couldn't do it. Not even with help.

That's it,

it's over.

If you can believe it,

life is still good. it's always good.

just harder sometimes than others.